Zenme. Zen with Jaime. You would not believe how hard it was to simple come up with the name. Two and a half years ago, I embarked on a new journey, that journey was what became Zoetic Dawn and since that very first blog, a lifetime of change has occurred.
Zoetic Dawn was my brainchild, my own side gig, my heart, soul, mind and energy went into it. The personal rewards and satisfaction I received from that very venture surpassed any effort I had expended and I began to cement myself as a coach.
But like most things, as I grew, as I had new experiences, as life occurred I changed, and ZD no longer felt like mine. Looking back now there are many contributing factors… from the people I called friends then versus now, my own knowledge, confidence and philosophy, my day to day life, all influenced the path of ZD. Not only did it not feel like mine, I had lost interest, passion and commitment. The energy it took to keep it ticking over began to drain me, and I struggled to find the words to create the tick.
So slowly over six months, I began to close parts of ZD down, with every move I had a sadness that something was ending, and a fear that I was losing something I had created. A very good friend of mine told me once “sometimes we have to burn things down in order to rebuild them”. Yet the concept of starting over scared me more.
So I continued to push my content, my voice, my stories, yet my voice was lost in amongst the expectations I had placed on what ZD was.
Then, I had had enough.
So I deleted everything on the website, I cleared my Instagram and I committed to myself. In the ashes of ZD, I found the inspiration to start again, I found the strength to embrace change, I found the voice that was hiding.
So what better place to start than fronting up with my truth of change. It’s been blinking hard.
That’s my truth. Change has been fricken hard, terrifying, excruciating and it’s been exciting, amazing and inspiring.
Change, ironically changes constantly. My own response to it changes with each bend in the road, and I continue to explore, grow and change myself, I begin to understand my truth one step at a time.
There is no magic cure, no magic tool, technique or strategy to make change go smoothly.
What there is, is truth.
It isn’t about embracing change, it’s about embracing truth.
One step at a time.